When we lose our child (sibling/grandchild/friend) to suicide, its virtually impossible not to ask ourselves the question "What did I...

Losing someone we love is always painful, and always, to some extent shocking. No matter how expected the death is, we can nevertheless...

I believe strongly in the power of psychotherapy. I have witnessed many, many times the capacity for human beings to adjust, to overcome,...

In the third post in this series I explore ways in which finding meaning after suicide loss has been possible for me. I realise this...

Talking about suicide loss can be hugely difficult and fraught with fear. Losing someone to suicide can be a very lonely feeling. Some...

I love this photo of kite-surfers at a beach near where we live. I've never kite-surfed in my life and I think there's very little chance...

This 'Christmas Tree' symbolises the way grief ebbs and flows. Starting at the bottom of the image, and moving up towards the tip of the...

Accepting Help I have tried to be open to accepting whatever anyone offered by way of help or support since we began this never-ending...

Labelling emotions and thoughts can help; try putting words to what you're feeling and thinking. During the first months and years you...

As human beings, we need hope. Yet, in the darkness of grief, when we have lost someone we loved so much, when we are drowning in sorrow...

The way that I have always visualised losing Anton is that he has left an enormous, gaping, deep black hole in all our lives. An...

Years ago, as a newly qualified Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) therapist in the NHS, I was allocated a patient whose notes filled me...

You are not alone There are so many great resources out there; I've just named a few organisations, websites and apps for help with...

Like me, Anton was a voracious reader all his life; he just loved books, and from the moment he learned to read could usually be found...

When Anton died, I didn't know how I would continue to live. Quite honestly, I didn't see how I could possibly survive it. During the...

Hold onto hope

Most of us have heard of PTSD: Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, but perhaps until now you have associated the term with military veterans...

At the very beginning it can be hard, even impossible, to take in the terrible news that the person you love has died. At this point,...

Home, 9th July 2022 Dear Anton It’s now been 2 years, 6 months and 21 days since you left us. This seems surreal, and very hard to take...